If you knew… what would you do?

A friend asked me a hypothetical question yesterday — one of those annoying yet thought-provoking questions that you’d like to brush off but you just can’t:

“If you knew you would be crippled with bad knees when you’re 80, would you stop running today?”

I replied, “No. I don’t believe that I’m hurting my knees by running. I don’t accept your premise.”

Then I lost half a night’s sleep trying to fully think through and justify my position.

Today I came back to that person with a counter-question: “If you knew you would have a heart attack someday while hiking, would you stop hiking today?” He replied, “No, because I figure I’d die quickly and painlessly doing something I love. But YOU could be crippled if you ruin your knees by running.”

Well. Let’s give that position some thought.

One day almost eleven years ago I was walking down a half-flight of stairs, missed the last step, and broke my foot. After that accident and its lingering effects, I spent the next seven years treating myself like a cripple and fearing the next fall.

If I’d known I was going to injure myself that day, would I have gotten out of bed?

Any given day could be our last. None of us knows when our number will be up, or how we’ll go. Does that mean I shouldn’t get out of bed today?

I do tend to listen to my body and I try to rely on it as a source of valuable data about how things are going. I intend to live for a very long time and I intend to be active for as long as I possibly can. Here are some things that my body is telling me about my having taken up running four years ago:

  • I was flabby then; I am not flabby now.
  • My feet hurt — a lot — then; they sometimes complain a bit now, but they are strong and show no signs of crumbling.
  • My balance was tenuous then; now I can run on rugged, bumpy trails. I no longer fear falling because I have good reason to believe I’m not going to fall.
  • I had to take walk breaks after 1/10th of a mile then; now I can run 13.1 miles without stopping.
  • My resting pulse has dropped from about 60 to about 54.
  • I was prone to depression and seasonal affective disorder then; now I can go out and run in the rain or when the temperature is in the 30s (like today) and come home feeling happy to be alive.
  • I stand up straighter and smile a whole lot more than I did then.
  • I have never been healthier in my life. Not when I was a kid and “galloped” everywhere pretending to be a horse. Not when I was a student scaling the hills of Westwood at UCLA.

Okay, so my knees hurt a little bit after a hard run. Okay, so I have to limit my running to three times a week to allow for recovery days. I’m in my late 50s! I fully understand that I’m not invincible.

I believe my running is strengthening my body, not damaging it. My knees are not going to get any stronger by sitting around doing nothing! “Use it or lose it,” as they say.

I’ve learned to listen closely to my body and take the extra time when I need it, take the walk breaks when it’s a casual, no-pressure run, and save myself for the days when there is an official clock and my finishing time matters. I do want to keep running into my 60s and 70s and yes, maybe even my 80s. Why would I want to stop doing something that has had so many positive effects in every aspect of my life?

Tomorrow morning I’m going to get out of bed. I’m certainly not going to lie there dreading the possibility that it’s my last day of life. I’m going to walk down the stairs without fear. I have some errands to take care of in the morning, and it’s going to be a busy day. But I think I’ll squeeze in three easy miles on the treadmill tomorrow afternoon, because I have plans that will cause me to miss my usual long Sunday run. And because my knees feel great and want more than the five miles along the waterfront that I had time for today.

Some say it’s an addiction. I say it’s a healthy way of life. And I think running a few half marathons might be just the thing to do when I’m in my 80s. I might even finally win my age group. 🙂

What do you think?


Posted on December 13, 2012, in Running and tagged . Bookmark the permalink. 10 Comments.

  1. There’s so many things that ‘could’ happen; you do what you makes you feel good now, given that it has so many ups and so few downs. Like when Mark asked me what I’d learned after I broke my shoulder my third time on skis and I said, ‘I need more lessons.’

  2. Great post! I agree with what you said. You can’t live by “what if’s,” or you’d never do anything. I didn’t start running until my 50’s, and I also plan to run until my 80’s. I want to get an award, and if I’m the only one in my age group, then so be it. But, seriously, I run because it helps me through life. So, if I get bad knees or injure myself, I’d rather do it with something I love. Not sitting around moaning.

  3. I say live while you’re alive! My dad always says he can’t pay attention to the “experts” any more when they say what is good or bad for you (re: food), because in a few months, the story changes. Just have a little of everything. I tend to agree.
    I think we’d all be a lot happier if we just do what we love. Spend our time LIVING and LOVING, and not THINKING about it. Dissecting everything to little bits and pieces. It’s unnecessary. Let’s be sensible, but let’s not take the fun out of life either.
    And I really think people should refrain from trying to steal other people’s joy. How is it that he can be active in a way he enjoys, but wants to guilt you into giving up yours? No way.
    Lori, do what makes you happy. And if your knees say goodbye at 80, remember how much fun you had, and brag about how much muscle tone and general health you STILL have because of your refusal to quit being active.

    • Lovelylici, your dad sounds like a wise man and I’ll take his/your advice! Although I don’t think this friend was trying to steal my joy or guilt me into anything — I believe it was said with good intentions (however ignorant). It is nice to get some support from my running friends however…

  4. “Life is for real it’s not a rehearsal” and your knees are more likely to “give out” if you lie on the couch all day rather than use them for running and walking which is what humans have been doing for several million years. Keep running Lori

  5. I’m “running” about a week behind in reading and I’m so glad I found this tonight! It’s funny to me how different we all may be in how we perceive risk and consequences from choices. The older I get the more I opt for what brings enjoyment and happiness versus always seeking safer choices. This morning I was part of a discussion among coworkers that I’ve been thinking about. A local radio host died today from head injuries following a motorcycle accident. He leaves behind a wife and children. Many in conversation were quite critical of his choice to ride a bike, risking his life. Others, me included, said that he could just as easily died in a car accident. He loved riding. When something brings us joy, and running is that for you, it’s not reasonable to worry about the future. A good friend of mine, a yoga instructor and in fabulous shape, fell on wet cement a year ago, has had surgery on her broken knee and is working her way back. It was a stupid, dumb accident. A great conversation, Lori! Thank you!

    • Debra, thanks.
      You have affirmed, along with everyone who has commented, that what I’m doing is the right and healthy thing. I needed that support! Sometimes, when I’m being questioned, it’s hard not to question myself. Thanks for helping me validate my experience.

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