One step at a time. One foot in front of the other.

That’s how I’m trying to live my life, and that’s how I’m going to do things with this blog. I have been blogging semi-publicly for over a year now, but that blog was focused on keeping friends and family informed of my late husband’s fight against stage 4 lung cancer. It’s now been two and a half months since I lost him… and I have discovered that besides (obviously) missing Kurt, I also miss blogging.

I am going to try something new with this blog, make it a bit more visible to the world, and see what may develop.

I’m a learning and development professional, an amateur philosopher, a mid-life PhD, who took up running in 2009 when somebody advised me to find a short-term goal to avoid the post-dissertation blues. I’m never going to be competitive (unless maybe I’m still running at the age of 100, which I sort of doubt), but I have indeed found happiness through running… so I’ve now proudly taken to calling myself the “slow happy runner.” I’ve completed three half marathons since February 2010, and I’m currently registered for three more within the next six months.

When I needed to give myself some respite from caregiving, I ran. When nothing else would stop the anguish of pre-grief screaming in my head, running stopped those thoughts. When I needed to cry, I welcomed opportunities to run in the rain. As I try to recreate my life as a “young widow,” I’m thinking about taking running vacations… going to places I’ve never been and running while I’m there.

I expect to write a lot about running in this blog, but that is only a part of multi-faceted me. So you might get a little grieving, a little philosophy, a little environmentalism, and who knows what else may capture my interest.

I hope you find things that are interesting to you here as well. Your comments will always be welcome… I only ask that you play nicely.

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Posted on August 28, 2011, in Uncategorized and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. tconkle273@hotmail.com

    Hello Lori,

    One has to keep running and we will keep running with you.
    “May the Lord make His face to shine upon you and give you peace”

    Tyler

  2. Randall Goddard

    Lori, this is awesome. Thanks so much for inviting me to discover your blog. I look forward to more of your musings. 🙂

  3. So happy to be with you on your journey, Lori. Glad you have pursued the silver lining that life seems to present to us in every awful experience, if we can only see it.

    I don’t know either on of you, I asked Kurt to join my “Linkedin” connections one day, and then I learned about his cancer, and followed your experience, hopefully giving some positive support along the way.

    I found writing to be a great release when my mate and I went through some major medical traumas a few years ago. Wrote a funny booklet about helping a friend who has cancer, and this year started a website, http://www.summerhouseretreat.com, mostly to remind myself to be healthy, and happy, and to start living my dreams, during the fleeting time we are given here on Earth.

    I know another woman who has weaved the loss of her son into a successful. cathartic, career as a writer of books, and her first novel will be published next month.

    Love to you on the days when it’s a struggle to get out of bed, and cheers to you when you find the energy to do good stuff for yourself.

    Your, sort of, neighbor in Port Townsend,
    Sue

  4. Sue, I remember you from your comments in Kurt’s blog, and I’ve visited your website and enjoyed it. It’s nice to see you here!
    Lori

  5. Found it!
    A good start.
    Colleen

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